Monday, July 4, 2011

Stuffed Squash

It's only 102 degrees at 3:30PM, but the humidity is up at 27%.  Oh sure, sounds pretty good to folks in places like the southern states that get REAL humidity, but it's still yukky to us. :)

Oddly, yesterday I was getting my Thursday-after-chemo leg pains.  It was very sporadic though, thank the deities.  And I had another Ocular Migraine.  At least in this round it's only been two of them.  I'm beginning to feel antsy about the CT that I will be having on Friday.  I can't tell you how hard it is to try to just keep these tests in perspective.  The results of this CT will tell me if this very toxic chemo regimen is doing me any good, or not.  I need to not think about it until Friday rolls around, and then I can be an anxious, neurotic mess until I see my Oncologist on the following Tuesday.

And on that Tuesday, the 12th, I am supposed to have my fourth chemo of this round.  I'm feeling wildly ambivalent about that.  I will not lie and say my body could not really use a break from all this.  And if the results of the CT are bad, it will get its break.  But if the results of the CT are good, we'll go for chemo four, and it'll be more pain, more feeling sick,, more creepy side effects, but I would still be getting RESULTS, I would still be LIVING.

But if the results of the CT are bad, will there be anything left to do?  Let me clarify that; will there be anything left to do that I could survive?

Well, I had to get all that off my chest, and now I can move on to today's happier subject, stuffed squash!  I looked around and found a decent recipe from the Food Network, and had to bastardize it.  For one thing, there will be no oven use until... oh...around November, I'd have say.  Unless we have one of this past year's winters from hell.

Back to the squash.  I scooped the seeds from a round zucchini, a normal zucchini, an acorn squash and one I could not identify, but looks like a variety of turban squash, which is weird since I thought they were winter squash.  After getting the seeds cleared out, I put them in a large glass bowl, with about an inch and a half of water in the bottom, and steamed them in the microwave.  Each variety of the squash was done in its own time, so I had to watch them like a hawk. :)

After they were all cooked, I got out some ground, lean turkey, and with Jane's help, we made the stuffing.  Once the meat was cooked through, we added a can of original Rotelle, sea salt, cracked pepper, corn, and let it simmer for a bit.   We diced another zucchini, and a slice from that unknown turban, and added it to the stuffing along with some of the last of our collards and spinach.  Finally, we had made our favorite brown rice mixture, and folded that in as well. Oh, and I tossed in some chopped walnuts for some extra texture and nutrition.  I also love to use McCormick's blend of Greek seasoning, so I tossed a couple tablespoons of that after rubbing it between my palms.

Once we were satisfied with the seasonings, we stuffed it into our squashes, topped it with Parmesan and popped it in our Oster Toaster Oven on broil, just enough to get it all warm again and melt the cheese.  I must say it was WAY satisfying; toothsome, flavorful and SO fresh!  I love growing my own food.  On the off chance that this cancer gets cured, I think my sisters and I should go buy a small farm somewhere cool.  Dreams.... :)

Oh, and Happy Fourth of July to America.  In honor of this occasion, I watched "John Adams" on HBO with the brilliant Paul Giamatti.  In fact, I don't think there was one sub-par actor in that movie.

Back to work tomorrow for many of us.  Have a great week, and I'm sure I'll be writing again soon.  Love ti all!!!

5 comments:

  1. Tequila, I so hope and pray that you get the right results when you go back to see the oncologist. I also hope that you can get some rest and not fret too much about the up-coming appointment before hand, although this must be almost impossible. Hang in there, lovely.

    I love the sound of all those squash that you're growing. My favourite is butternut squash, but there's no way I could grow that - least of all because I don't have a garden or much growing ability ;o)

    Becky x

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  2. Thank you, as always, Becky! I try not to get my hopes up, but I am a raving optimist, despite my neuroses. :)

    Boots the Chemist! I just like typing it. Oh yes, I adore growing my food, and though I have plenty of room, our major problem is the heat and the expense of the water. I've got a few Butternut squash now; I love them, too!

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  3. Hope you had a happy 4th Tequila. Lots of fireworks here in PA which made the dog totally freak out poor girl.

    Boots the chemist, i know them well. target sells a lot of their beauty products and very nice they are too.

    Your gardening efforts seem to have paid off big time. I am seriously considering doing the same thing up here. the price of produce seems to be going thru the roof lately. also all those chemicals being sprayed on stuff just skeezes me out.

    i do so hope you get good results from your scan, fingers crossed up here for you. i know it is a hard thing to decide. my sis could not take it anymore and gave up. i remember pleading with her on the phone to please not stop, but then i was not the one going thru it. she said she was just tired and could not do it anymore. i kinda think i would be inclined to do the same. sheesh hard decision to make. i know you will make the right one for you girlie.

    do not work too hard. get lots of rest and i know you will be eating good.
    fay in the family room

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  4. LOL to you enjoying writing 'Boots the Chemist' :oD I was in there again today so had them lugging the ramp out again ;o) I'm on a mission now hehehe

    Oh how I wish I could sample your butternut squash (and no, that's not a euphemism! ;oP ), but I somehow don't think I'm going to get the chance.

    I hope today's going okay for you.

    Becky.

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  5. Fay, I think we all just know innately when it's time for us to say "stop." I'm pretty sure it's not even close to my time. Or, I'm just in denial. :D

    Either way... I still have it in me for more treatments. Besides, I haven't gotten my copy of "a dance with dragons" yet! :D

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