Last night my shoulder began to hurt....and read hurt as painful enough to make me cry. Nancy applied one of those moist heat things from the microwave. Oh that helped a ton.
I took some morphine and tried to sleep, but thtat didn't quite work so well. Now I wonder if the bone mets have gotten to my shoulder, gods forbid.
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Oh my goodness Tequila, it sure does sound like it. I am so sorry you are having to go thru this. Have they not tried you with fentanyl or anything, is it only the morphine you take? I know second hand that cancer pain is horrendous. My poor mum used to beat her head on the floor in pain, that was way back in the 80s when paine meds were in the dark ages. I still think sometimes we have a long way to go to beat the pain of this insidious shitty disease.
ReplyDeleteI do so hope your carers can take care of this to make you feel more comfortable. I wish I could take some of the pain for you. It just sucks so bad.
The weather up here in PA is damp and misty and grey. On a good note though, spring is right around the corner. The big tree in my neighbours yard is in bud, so something is happening. I do miss the sunshine though I have to say.
The weekend is almost upon us again. Boy time seems to be going past so fast. Maybe it is just an age thing. I am verging on being 60 in a month and it is getting quite scary. I still feel like I did when I was 19 and on the verge of getting married. My old bod says otherwise though, damn old age.
Girlfriend, hope you have a good pain free weekend.
I am sending you good thoughts from up here in the hinterland.
Take it easy
fay in the family room
Dear Tequila,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you are in so much pain. Can they do something more than the morphine? How is your dizziness? I will pray to all the dieties that you find relief. I would also like to congratulate you. I believe this is your first day of your official retirement. Sending you gentle hugs and hoping you find relief soon.
Carolyn
Just to let you know someone else is thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and sending positive thoughts, hoping so much that some medication can help with the severe pain you are going through. You are such a courageous Woman..I admire you.
ReplyDeleteGentle Hugs going your way,
Arlene
I've been missing you Tequila. Hope you are resting well.
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs and prayers,
Linda (linr)
So sorry that you're in such terrible pain. I do hope that they manage to get it under control. Thinking about you a lot, and a little worried because it's almost two weeks since you posted and you're usually such a regular blogger. I hope you're getting some much needed rest. Take care, lovely.
ReplyDeleteBecky xx
Hey Teq, miss hearing from you. Hope they are helping you get your pain under control. Positive thoughts coming your way
ReplyDeleteBev