Retirement?

I would never have retired at 53, but it looks like I have no choice.  Thankfully, I just hit 35 years with Boeing so qualifying for said retirement is no problemo.

I shall call in tomorrow to get the ball rolling.  I guess I should work on disability at the same time.

My appetite is back with a vengeance, and I think, while I can still eat, I should take the bull by the horns and eat what I darned well please.


I did eat a whole , albeit small, bowl of chicken tortilla soup.

Time for bed.  Love and hugs to all!

eating

i can smell chicken tortilla soup!  Jane,my sister, has been cooking...yay.  My friend, Annette, came by, bearing fine company ...i love her...and Dunkin Donuts.:)

But i was good and had greek yogurt for breakfast.

getting stronger

now that i have been sprung from a banner facility, where religious prosecutions are alive and well, i seem to be gettong much stronger.   of course, now i am being taken care of by people that love me :)

still here

sorry it has been a while since my last post.

Things have been hopping on the home front.  my electric wheelchair was delivered today, as well as my hospital bed.

i'm a bit tired and overwhelmed.

and now i need to sleep.

love and hugs to all.

terror at banner baywood

i had just finished saying a prayer for whomever was coming in via helicopter when i decided to say a prayer for me for some strength, and to get rid of this dizziness.  i kind of sang it.  i freaked a couple of people out.  they threatened an exorcism and to just burn the witch.

ok that last part freaked ME out.

so yeah i'm back in the hospital with not a littlte trepidation.

love and hus to all.

Sumo Legs

the Decadron that I take to keep the brain swelling DOWN, has given me Sumo wrestler legs.  This is actually quite uncomfortable.

Soon it won't be a problem any more because once the radiation does its thing, we can begin a taper off of the decadron and my normal legs will return YAY!

Looking forward to the Golden Globules, if only for Ricky Gervais again.

Tomorrow we return to our daily radiation schedule, brain and thigh zappage at 2:10PM.

Sorry, tired, but love and hugs to all.

Hospice

I made the decision today to apply to hospice.  My oncolgist says all we can do now is try to give good palliative care, and we're going to go through the course of radiation on the bone cancer, and the radiation on the brain.  This way, I can have a good quality of life with what's left, and not have to go back through the torture of chemo that doesn't work.

I got through the initial brain radiation, and it wasn't of course as bad as my antipation of the terror.  I did come home with waffle marks all over my face from the evil mask they snap onto your head and adhere to the table.  You WILL NOT MOVE!  Jane says they were more like honeycombs.

One of the ladies I always see while waiting for radiaion brought several of us homemade bread.  Mine is blueberry and carrot.  It was still warm, and very fragrant.  And MY was it fabulous.  I grabbed a hunk to eat on the way home.  This is same woman who knitted me a purple hat because I didn't have one.  She's a snowbird from Michigan.  An angel of a woman.

So, my primary care doc, Dr. Ramaswamy is going to get the hospice stuff started.  We will probably wait until both rounds of radiation are finished.  But I can't tell you how relieved and happy I am at making the decision.  I no longer have to go through treatments that ultimately don't work, but torture me in the meantime.  I can concentrate on my job, my family, my friends, my doga and help them undertand that this is the very best decision I can make right now.  And I am happy!

I'll keep you up to date on my progress as we take this journey; I am almost excited to see where we'll go.

Love and hugs to all!