Sunday, September 11, 2011

Coming up on Number Five

Tuesday will begin round five of the clinical trial chemos.  Blech.  Funny how you can make yourself do something that makes you so sick.  It's the promise of cancer redemption that keeps you going.  I'd like to think, too, that doing this trial is helping other people as well.  Stage I of this trial helped define the dosage tolerances.  I'm not sure what Stage II is doing, but whatever it is, we're doing it!


I had a dream last night; Jane had a weird screen saver on her computer's display.  I told her it was creepy because it was exactly like an ocular migraine.  Then I woke up... and was having an ocular migraine. :P


Having read about my cupcake cravings, Jane and Nancy came home with ingredients and made a batch of red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting.  And of course, I was done with my cupcake cravings.  But did I say NO to those pretty little things?  Heaven forbid!  Must eat those things made with love, you know.  Just don't eat five of them. :)


Last night saw a deluge of rain.  My sister-in-law, Julie, had called to say they had hail, really high winds and their power was out.  Julie lives ESE of us, and while we were on the phone, our house had blue skies and a light breeze, but you could see, off in the distance, a lot of dark thunderheads.


About an hour later, we got the deluge; no hail, plenty of wind and so much rain you couldn't see across the street.  It lasted probably fifteen minutes, and when I put the dogs out around Nine PM, my back yard was dry.  We really needed that rain!  I think it's still considered part of monsoon season, here, and it was quite a show with all the lightning.


So, I'm approaching Tuesday with trepidation, since the toxicity of the chemos is building up and it's taking me longer each time to start to feel human.  But I can't stop now; I'm in the home stretch!  I'll just learn to nap more.


Now it's time to hit the hookah (my pet name for my nebulizer) because it's humid and I have a hard time breathing when the air feels like a sauna.  Funny, when I lived in California, the spa my mom and I went to every day after work for our exercise regimen had a sauna, and I LOVED it!  Of course, I hadn't been diagnosed with asthma yet, back then.  Who knew I'd move to Arizona and get to experience wide-spread sauna-like conditions? :)  Luckily, we're USUALLY a dry heat.


Alrighty, then.  Have a fabulous week, all.  Kiss a puppy, or a kitty, or your spouse. :)

3 comments:

  1. Hi
    I am glad you got your cup cake craving taken care off, they sound wonderful. Don't you just love cream cheese frosting, my fave.

    Ok, so only 2 more chemos to go, you can do it girlfriend. I know it is hard, but hey, who knows it may be the magic bullet. I so agree that these trials are for the good. People further down the road are gonna benefit from all the knowledge gleaned from what you are doing. You are like an explorer or something, going where no-one has gone before, kinda cool. They should call it a shot of Tequila, ay ay ay ay ay badabing.

    When my sis was sick, I saw a side of her I had never seen before. She was always so fun loving and crack me up funny. When she was first diagnosed I think she decided that she was gonna do everything in her power to make sure she got what she wanted and was not gonna take no for an answer. She questioned everything and if someone was late to take her for a scan etc, boy she left them in no doubt that it would not be tolerated. They soon got the message, she was fighting for her life and slackers were not welcome on the ride.

    We collected money at her funeral for a sleeper sofa in the cancer ward where she used to do her chemo etc. so that families could stay over. When we took it to the head nurse on the ward, he told me and my niece that the doctors who had treated Kath had revised their whole patient care plan because of her. They said that she had taught them that she was a person and that she was fighting for her life. I think sometimes they get so caught up in their jobs that we all just become faces in beds. She taught them different. Also all the people who came to her funeral who themselves were fighting cancer told me that she had changed their lives. They said she gave them the will to fight even harder and they would never forget her. What a testament eh. I was so proud of her. We all touch someone as we pass by.

    I do believe that things happen for a reason. I am praying that this trial will work for you. Geeze, it has to work for someone.
    Thunder is rumbling here and the dog is having a hissy fit. She is an 85lb pit and is shaking, big baby.
    Take it easy
    Fay in the family room

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  2. Fay, I love it when you share your stories about your sister. It makes me feel close to her, although of course we never met. Thank you, my friend.

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  3. Yep we had Hail... fair sized hail. And I an still baffled as to "How". It's says it 100 degrees outside and it HAILED. Mother nature is powerful. Those cupcake sound fabulous! And I agree, Fay that was a great story. Sending you love and positive thoughts.

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