I hate Dizzy!

I had a lovely shower today, thanks to aide Jennifer.

Sick and Dizzy

Must tell hospice nurse.

Journey to death

I am sitting here on my La-Z_Boy recliner, and may I say it is THE most comfortable sitting surface I own.  If you want to see it, it's a Carlyle recliner.  It was pricey, but oh so worth every penney.

Anywho, I have lots of time to think these days.  My hospice nurse would love to see me take a trip, but it's so problematic hauling all themedical equipment around.  And I'm just talking for the lung disease, never mind the cancer.  And then I think why lug it all around?  If you are really ready to die, do you need it?  Well that's a damned fine question. I don't think it behooves me to HASTEN my death, and besides, the point of this blog now is to describe the the facets of experience in light of a waning life.

I don't want to fear it and I don't want my readers to fear it.  It's such a natural progression on our journey' and everyone we have ever loved, encountered, and been annoyed by has taken it.  And I can't imagine that any deity or deities that had a hand in our creation would simply abandon us at this end point.

Perhaps I just think this to give myself comfort, but I have seen those that wait for me, and they tell me I have time yet.  Maybe it won't be the most pleasant of times going forward, but I WILL be going forward!

LOVE, HUGS, AND BLESSINGS TO ALL.

TIME TO CONFESS

I must confess to nurse Betty later today, that I am getting dizzy again.  I would have to bet it's caused by growth in the brain tumors.  And, there is now pain when I try to eat, although the strawberry ice cream was no problem.

I hate confessing to any kind of pain because I know they will want me to take some kind of pain killer, and they all mske me sick.  Oh well, though, I do still want to be able to eat, too.

Should be an interesting day ;)  Love and hugs to all!

My Funny Valentine

It's little Tyra, a rescue Toy Poodle/Chihuahua.  Not to worry, my sisters will love her when I am gone.

We were both rather tired.

Far Too Sleepy

Today I feel like I did when I came home from the hospital; weak and very tired.  I don't know if I just overdid it too much last week when I was feeling great.

I do have a bit of a sore throat, but Nurse Betty took a look and said it was red, but fine.  My labs were great from last week, too.  So why do I feel like I could sleep forever?  Oh well, back to the walker and that's not such  bad thing.  I guess I'll just go back up there to my La-Z-Boy and doze some more.

Love and hugs to all!

Sprout's Sunday

Okay, today I am going to take my first foray outside of my house since I entered hospice.  I was trying to decide what kind of goodies to get, and then realized I won't be having a paycheck for at least 4 more weeks.

So, that's rather narrowed my selection a bit. :)

But, I do want to get a big hunk of fresh ginger to make some tea; nothing better to settle one's stomach.

I had a lovely visit from my friend, V. Corrigan.  She wrote in the memory book that Linda, my hospice social worker had made for me.  It's got a beautiful cover of parrots, and three marmalade cats.

Strangely, I spent most of today dozing...I just could not stay awake for long.  Oh well, I guess I needed it .

And speaking of sleep, I guess I'll get some more in, now.

Love and hugs to you all!