It has taken me this long to get back to being myself. The Queen of Neuroses has been reigning over me telling me that the problems I'm having typing are caused by a brain tumor. I'm guessing it's more probable that I've had a mini stroke, considering it's just my left hand that can't type well. Oh, speaking of strokes, I'd better go do my Arixtra shot... I'm late! Be right back....
Ok, all shot up. :)
I'm having cottage cheese cravings, now. Which is good, I guess; plenty of protein. Yesterday I was at Ironwood having my radiation sims run. My leg now has 4 radiation entry points, and strangely, there's even one on my right leg. I got fitted for the leg holding apparatus, and it's quite comfortable. I wonder how long the actual zappage will be? I'll have to count during my first one. I tend to count anyway; it's how I dampen my anxiety during scans and radiations. Wow, can't believe I have to do this again. Oh well....
Love and hugs to all!
Showing posts with label cravings. Show all posts
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Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
A Bit O' Nausea
It's just there, at the edges of my ability to perceive nausea. Not horrible enough to make me barf, but kind of like a warning that it could get there, if I don't watch out!
Happily, I'm still at the salad craving stage, so I had one of my favorites this evening. I don't even want to know the nutritional value. I am eating it, and that's good enough for me. It's from Wendy's, of all places. It's their Spicy Chicken Caesar Salad, and I love it. It comes with two things of dressing, so I only use one, and that's plenty for me
El Pollo Loco has a Mexican Caesar Salad with cilantro dressing and cotija cheese. Oh yeah, now that one is definitely my favorite. Hits me right in my Latina heritage. :D YUMMY!
It's weird that I can be nauseated and still eat. But of course, I have to eat, and I have to eat good stuff. Good nutrition will help me maintain strength, be able to heal, and frankly just deal with all the chemo by-products. I stopped taking a bunch of supplements when I got the cancer, especially the ones with HUGE pills. I can't get them down. I was thrilled when they came out with the tiny Krill Oil caplets. I'd been taking fish oil for years, on the advice of my primary care doc, but those giant 'softgels' I just could not swallow any more.
So, now the only nutritional supplements I still take are Magnesium, which I take for lung function, the krill oil, B6, which helps to keep the Hand-Foot syndrome at bay, Turmeric, because I heard it was a cancer cell killer, and if all I get are placebo effects from it, I'm happy with that. I should probably look into a good multi-vitamin that's not ginormous. Maybe if I feel well enough, I'll take a trip to Sprout's this weekend. I need to get more of my Xylitol mouthwash, in any event.
Tomorrow I must remember to drink even more than usual, since the iodine is very hard on my kidneys, and gods know I don't want kidney failure as my next 'challenge.' Oh lord, it's after ten PM and I am still up. My doggies are ready for bed, so I guess I should end this and get some sleep.
Be well, all.
Happily, I'm still at the salad craving stage, so I had one of my favorites this evening. I don't even want to know the nutritional value. I am eating it, and that's good enough for me. It's from Wendy's, of all places. It's their Spicy Chicken Caesar Salad, and I love it. It comes with two things of dressing, so I only use one, and that's plenty for me
El Pollo Loco has a Mexican Caesar Salad with cilantro dressing and cotija cheese. Oh yeah, now that one is definitely my favorite. Hits me right in my Latina heritage. :D YUMMY!
It's weird that I can be nauseated and still eat. But of course, I have to eat, and I have to eat good stuff. Good nutrition will help me maintain strength, be able to heal, and frankly just deal with all the chemo by-products. I stopped taking a bunch of supplements when I got the cancer, especially the ones with HUGE pills. I can't get them down. I was thrilled when they came out with the tiny Krill Oil caplets. I'd been taking fish oil for years, on the advice of my primary care doc, but those giant 'softgels' I just could not swallow any more.
So, now the only nutritional supplements I still take are Magnesium, which I take for lung function, the krill oil, B6, which helps to keep the Hand-Foot syndrome at bay, Turmeric, because I heard it was a cancer cell killer, and if all I get are placebo effects from it, I'm happy with that. I should probably look into a good multi-vitamin that's not ginormous. Maybe if I feel well enough, I'll take a trip to Sprout's this weekend. I need to get more of my Xylitol mouthwash, in any event.
Tomorrow I must remember to drink even more than usual, since the iodine is very hard on my kidneys, and gods know I don't want kidney failure as my next 'challenge.' Oh lord, it's after ten PM and I am still up. My doggies are ready for bed, so I guess I should end this and get some sleep.
Be well, all.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Cravings
There is danger in having access to just about everything on the face of the planet via the www. Today I had cupcake cravings. I don't eat cupcakes, yet I had to stop myself from buying, of all things, a Cupcake Maker. Seriously, if you have an oven, you already HAVE a cupcake maker; you don't need some silly pink cupcake-shaped, teflon-coated, electricity-hogging waste of space!
But I wanted one. Yet, I was strong and got past that moment of madness. Makes me wonder if the Queen of Neuroses has a pal... the Duchess of Dim-wittedness. Could happen.
Time now to inhale some albuterol. I see we have an Ozone Health Watch for tomorrow, and we're back up to around 108. Joy. Maybe tomorrow I'll crave an Icee or something very cold. Oooh, snowcones!
I remember last year at this time wishing for cooler weather, which meant that I was hoping time would fly by into Winter. THIS year, I'm just taking it as it comes. I'd love cooler weather, but I don't want to wish my life away, either. Of course, last year at this time, I had no idea I had a freaking monster in my esophagus, either. That wasn't discovered until the last week of September.
So, yes, it's almost a year that I have survived this cancer. I think, all things considered, that I am holding up pretty well. I'd just love to have my life back; you know, work, be as social as I ever was, which wasn't much, but it was better than this feeling of isolation from the rest of humanity. But it's so hard to leave the house. It's just tiring! You know, you have to be presentable, and then there's usually lots of physicality involved, and I'm weak as if, donating blood I gave a gallon of blood instead of a pint.
Oh sure, the weather is not helping, nor the air lack-of-quality. But you know, if I had a cupcake, I probably wouldn't mind...STOP THAT! No cupcakes! I just had some garlic bread; the last thing I need is more carbs. Or sugar. Ummm, cupcakes. I'm losing it.
But not really, because in ten minutes I'll crave something else like prunes or pistachios, or pumpkin pie, or pickles... and I HATE pickles. I think I need a nap.
Be well, all, and be thankful for all the love you have in your life, but remember it takes LOVING to earn love in return.
But I wanted one. Yet, I was strong and got past that moment of madness. Makes me wonder if the Queen of Neuroses has a pal... the Duchess of Dim-wittedness. Could happen.
Time now to inhale some albuterol. I see we have an Ozone Health Watch for tomorrow, and we're back up to around 108. Joy. Maybe tomorrow I'll crave an Icee or something very cold. Oooh, snowcones!
I remember last year at this time wishing for cooler weather, which meant that I was hoping time would fly by into Winter. THIS year, I'm just taking it as it comes. I'd love cooler weather, but I don't want to wish my life away, either. Of course, last year at this time, I had no idea I had a freaking monster in my esophagus, either. That wasn't discovered until the last week of September.
So, yes, it's almost a year that I have survived this cancer. I think, all things considered, that I am holding up pretty well. I'd just love to have my life back; you know, work, be as social as I ever was, which wasn't much, but it was better than this feeling of isolation from the rest of humanity. But it's so hard to leave the house. It's just tiring! You know, you have to be presentable, and then there's usually lots of physicality involved, and I'm weak as if, donating blood I gave a gallon of blood instead of a pint.
Oh sure, the weather is not helping, nor the air lack-of-quality. But you know, if I had a cupcake, I probably wouldn't mind...STOP THAT! No cupcakes! I just had some garlic bread; the last thing I need is more carbs. Or sugar. Ummm, cupcakes. I'm losing it.
But not really, because in ten minutes I'll crave something else like prunes or pistachios, or pumpkin pie, or pickles... and I HATE pickles. I think I need a nap.
Be well, all, and be thankful for all the love you have in your life, but remember it takes LOVING to earn love in return.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Laughter, Food, and Family
The visit with my sister, brother-in-law, and niece was fantastic. It made me so happy on many levels. First, of course, is that we laughed and talked and laughed even more.
Cee treated us all to Outback's take-away, and of course, I had to have some crab. This time, though, it was snow crab rather than Alaskan King Crab... but I have to say, this snow crab was the best I've ever had. And then we had to talk about the best food we'd had in all the places we'd visited in our lives. Cee had chicken shawarma in Israel. Mine was an incredible Paella in Barcelona. CeeCee enjoyed Korean in Dallas. It's interesting all of life's memories that are connected to food. Of course, that makes sense, considering you need food for life.
We laughed about Mom's lack of cooking prowess. Not in any sense was it disrespectful laughter, rather it was how Mom's cooking colored our perception of certain foods that we thought were hideous, but that we now love. It wasn't that she didn't care; she just didn't KNOW how to cook. To her, considering how poor she was as a child, food was not necessarily something about which to be inspired, but more about keeping bellies fed. And, frankly, Mom hated cooking. It was a chore for her.
Happily, to her daughters, cooking became a passion. Cooking became a creative outlet; cooking became a way to show love to those with whom we shared our creations.
It isn't often that I write two posts in one day, but I have to tell you that I had SUCH a great day today. Thank you, Cee, Bud and CeeCee. It truly was such fun. I may be exhausted, but being with you was worth it. MORE than worth it. I love you all so much.
Cee treated us all to Outback's take-away, and of course, I had to have some crab. This time, though, it was snow crab rather than Alaskan King Crab... but I have to say, this snow crab was the best I've ever had. And then we had to talk about the best food we'd had in all the places we'd visited in our lives. Cee had chicken shawarma in Israel. Mine was an incredible Paella in Barcelona. CeeCee enjoyed Korean in Dallas. It's interesting all of life's memories that are connected to food. Of course, that makes sense, considering you need food for life.
We laughed about Mom's lack of cooking prowess. Not in any sense was it disrespectful laughter, rather it was how Mom's cooking colored our perception of certain foods that we thought were hideous, but that we now love. It wasn't that she didn't care; she just didn't KNOW how to cook. To her, considering how poor she was as a child, food was not necessarily something about which to be inspired, but more about keeping bellies fed. And, frankly, Mom hated cooking. It was a chore for her.
Happily, to her daughters, cooking became a passion. Cooking became a creative outlet; cooking became a way to show love to those with whom we shared our creations.
It isn't often that I write two posts in one day, but I have to tell you that I had SUCH a great day today. Thank you, Cee, Bud and CeeCee. It truly was such fun. I may be exhausted, but being with you was worth it. MORE than worth it. I love you all so much.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
It's Chemo Week Off!
Already I have discovered my appetite is back. I want really, really GOOD raviolis. Which is weird, since I rarely eat raviolis. I guess cravings don't make any sense; you just know you want something.
Hey, have I mentioned that I'm sick to death of squash? We learned a great lesson this year on the farming front: try not to plant too much of any one thing. ;) Yes, the squash are still producing, but I think Sunshine Acres is going to be getting all the rest. I can't even LOOK at squash right now...lol.
Still, we have probably 25-30 chili pepper plants of various varieties and I don't have a problem with them. You can dry them, you can use them in every meal under the sun, you just can't get sick of chili peppers! Oh, and the tomatoes; how amazing that we did it all right this year. The flavors just explode in your mouth. When you cook with them, it's stunning. When you eat them just as is, with a little salt and pepper, heavenly.
I just need the larger chilies to mature, like the pasillas. I am dying for a spectacular chile relleno. I wonder if I could manage a trip to Tia Rosa's restaraunt this week? Despite it being my chemo week off, I'm still kinda weak from the chemo week ON. :D
Good lords, it is time for bed and all I can think about is food. See what happens when the chemo stops for just a bit? But, I think this chemo is working. And I say this because those referencing pains in my throat and shoulder are all but gone. Yes, I had something very like a muscle spasm in my shoulder today, but it was way different than the 'normal' pain. Still, it's early in this cycle, and while I do not want to get my hopes up, I refuse not to be optimistic. I can be just as big a pollyanna as anyone else!
Ok, before I think up more food items to crave, I'm going to play a little more World of Warcraft, then get to bed. I'm having fun with my undead Rogue, Ynez. I rarely play her, but today, I got her to level 84. Maybe it's all tied in with the weird cravings!
Love, hugs, and prayers for good health and long life to everyone!
Hey, have I mentioned that I'm sick to death of squash? We learned a great lesson this year on the farming front: try not to plant too much of any one thing. ;) Yes, the squash are still producing, but I think Sunshine Acres is going to be getting all the rest. I can't even LOOK at squash right now...lol.
Still, we have probably 25-30 chili pepper plants of various varieties and I don't have a problem with them. You can dry them, you can use them in every meal under the sun, you just can't get sick of chili peppers! Oh, and the tomatoes; how amazing that we did it all right this year. The flavors just explode in your mouth. When you cook with them, it's stunning. When you eat them just as is, with a little salt and pepper, heavenly.
I just need the larger chilies to mature, like the pasillas. I am dying for a spectacular chile relleno. I wonder if I could manage a trip to Tia Rosa's restaraunt this week? Despite it being my chemo week off, I'm still kinda weak from the chemo week ON. :D
Good lords, it is time for bed and all I can think about is food. See what happens when the chemo stops for just a bit? But, I think this chemo is working. And I say this because those referencing pains in my throat and shoulder are all but gone. Yes, I had something very like a muscle spasm in my shoulder today, but it was way different than the 'normal' pain. Still, it's early in this cycle, and while I do not want to get my hopes up, I refuse not to be optimistic. I can be just as big a pollyanna as anyone else!
Ok, before I think up more food items to crave, I'm going to play a little more World of Warcraft, then get to bed. I'm having fun with my undead Rogue, Ynez. I rarely play her, but today, I got her to level 84. Maybe it's all tied in with the weird cravings!
Love, hugs, and prayers for good health and long life to everyone!
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