Cravings

There is danger in having access to just about everything on the face of the planet via the www.  Today I had cupcake cravings.  I don't eat cupcakes, yet I had to stop myself from buying, of all things, a Cupcake Maker.  Seriously, if you have an oven, you already HAVE a cupcake maker; you don't need some silly pink cupcake-shaped, teflon-coated, electricity-hogging waste of space!


But I wanted one.  Yet, I was strong and got past that moment of madness.  Makes me wonder if the Queen of Neuroses has a pal... the Duchess of Dim-wittedness.  Could happen.


Time now to inhale some albuterol.  I see we have an Ozone Health Watch for tomorrow, and we're back up to around 108.  Joy.  Maybe tomorrow I'll crave an Icee or something very cold.  Oooh, snowcones!


I remember last year at this time wishing for cooler weather, which meant that I was hoping time would fly by into Winter.  THIS year, I'm just taking it as it comes.  I'd love cooler weather, but I don't want to wish my life away, either.  Of course, last year at this time, I had no idea I had a freaking monster in my esophagus, either.  That wasn't discovered until the last week of September.


So, yes, it's almost a year that I have survived this cancer.  I think, all things considered, that I am holding up pretty well.  I'd just love to have my life back; you know, work, be as social as I ever was, which wasn't much, but it was better than this feeling of isolation from the rest of humanity.  But it's so hard to leave the house.  It's just tiring!  You know, you have to be presentable, and then there's usually lots of physicality involved, and I'm weak as if, donating blood I gave a gallon of blood instead of a pint. 


Oh sure, the weather is not helping, nor the air lack-of-quality.  But you know, if I had a cupcake, I probably wouldn't mind...STOP THAT!  No cupcakes!  I just had some garlic bread; the last thing I need is more carbs.  Or sugar.  Ummm, cupcakes.  I'm losing it.


But not really, because in ten minutes I'll crave something else like prunes or pistachios, or pumpkin pie, or pickles... and I HATE pickles.  I think I need a nap.


Be well, all, and be thankful for all the love you have in your life, but remember it takes LOVING to earn love in return.

Power Outage

Sometime around Noon, my sister, Jane, called to tell me she could see huge billows of black smoke from her store.  I hit the 'net and eventually discovered that a transformer had caught fire in East Mesa.  Her store had had a couple of brown outs, and then lost their power just about the same time we did here, 2:15PM.


It was only about 105 at the time, so the house was relatively comfortable, as long as you didn't open a door and didn't move.  The temperature in my bedroom topped out at 89.7.  Around 4:30 ish we called our power provider, Salt River Project, and asked if they had an estimated time when the power would be restored.  Remember, I have an oxygen concentrator and my CPAP which I really do need to sleep well.  The person on the line was lovely, especially considering how hot it was, and how unhappy many of their callers must have been.  He said the current estimate was 2:30 AM.  Ai carumba!  


Well, I do have an O2 tank, which I am not sure I even know how to use, but I would do my best, if the need arose.  But it was so uncomfortable and I was having problems breathing.  I am currently doing a breathing treatment as I type; figuring I'd better do it while we HAVE power.  I am guessing we might lose it again before the day is out.


Of course, as I am typing this, you will see that their estimate was not very good, thank the gods.  Power was restored about 6:30PM.  Oh the joy of Central Air.  Although, frankly, I would have been happy for just a functioning item that would have gotten air flowing through the house.  I wonder if there are chargeable fans for sale anywhere.  Must check Amazon.


I confess to quickly grabbing a sparkling water from the fridge during the outage because my iced tea went fairly quickly once the heat rose in the house.  Oh, Nancy took one of my chemo hats, soaked it in water and I wore that for a while, and it was great! :)


At least I had started work early, so when the power went out, I had already gotten my eight hours of exciting numbers crunching completed.  It really IS exciting.  I have fun. :D


Tomorrow we're having an Ozone Health Watch and that smoke didn't help, and of course wildfires still rage around our state.  So, send some good juju our way for continued power so I can run all my breathing thingies, especially my nebulizer.  Yeah, I can of course go to a local hospital if necessary, but you KNOW how I feel about THOSE places! :D


Love to all, keep cool, and give out some hugs!

Crud

It's 3:12 AM, and I've been awake since just after midnight.  Had to get up and do a breathing treatment.  I'm coughing up some stuff, and I've gotten dressed in case I need to hit the ER.  Watching my temperature, but it's fine.  I can't breathe through my nose.

Not sure if I caught a cold; I haven't had one of them in about twenty years, so I don't remember how they go.  I thought it might be allergies due to the unseasonable heat and yes, the pollen counts are up.  I'm starting to wheeze, though.

I'm going to go make some coffee, and then decide if I should go to the ER.